tl;dr I’m really annoyed with myself and take it out on the Internet and some of it’s qualities
I’ve come to the realization that some things people say are just so infuriating.
1. If you’re claiming to be awkward…don’t fucking go around and tell every person that you’re awkward. How do you think that helps your fucking situation…I mean, really? Mentioning it all the time is just a stupid move. We all get it. You need attention because you’re a special and unique snowflake. From my experience with “awkward people”, they don’t go around yelling it to the world. That’s why I don’t really like you, Zooey. You have woken up this stupid creature that shouldn’t even fucking exist. Hoorah for the awkward and quirky girl who can’t help but shrug and say, “I don’t know why people don’t like me. Is it because I’m awkward and like ______? Siiiiiigh”
2. If you need the same wake up call every fiscal year. Ive been in this position and have learned from the things friends have told me. I’ve now become that person that has to try and say something that will be ignored a second later. Youre probably wondering, “hey! I’m the one with the trust/independent/anxiety issues over here!” I have my own shit to face, I’m (and your other friends) are slowly getting tired of having to repeat ourselves every single time you put yourself in these situations. Every person is different and they have to learn blah blah blah but seriously? I just think that there has to be a limit. You’ve thrown my advice out the window for the 3rd time? Done.
3. The “Why do my friends like me?” short answer: because you’re awesome. And when someone tells you this, believe them! Don’t knock that down and start a downpour about how in 5th grade Becky told everyone your room smelled like mayonnaise and how no one should be friends with you. Everybody deserves a friend or three.
4. The “I’m flawless because I…” okay, let’s get one thing straight. The only person who is flawless is Armie hammer. It’s good to get on that high horse every once in a while but if you have to physically push people down to make yourself feel like a queen, go home. You probably have your insecurities but COME ON! No one deserves to be treated like shit. I bet..I bet you feel like I’m attacking you right now, right? Oh…you!
I’m done for right now. I know that I have my own shit to fix but it would be a lot easier if these things didn’t exist.
I’ve missed talking to you. I like this us being friends thing..for right now. It’s so easy via message but I’m sure the one day we do get together..I might regret it? or all the angst I had towards you might unleash itself and things will go bad.
Am I really considering studying abroad next fall? Do I look like someone who could survive in London/Paris?
I just want to punch your face.
So uh….Kelly talked you into apologizing to me. I don’t know when or where this will take place but I’m sure that I’m going to laugh in your face. My best friend has to talk you into apologizing….to my face. Not over the phone or on Facebook. let’s see how big of a man you’ll be seeing my face after your bitch ass excuse of a break up.
I still don’t understand why you’re doing this. I get it. You’re moving down here and see Kelly as one of your few friends but why? what bullshit are you going to give me? That you’re sorry it had to happen that way? Heard it before. Sorry that you moved on WAAAY before I have been able to? Heard it. that you’re sorry for how this turned out? This will be a good one.
I hope that you can keep fucking eye contact while you give me a mouth full of bullshit. I hope that when that is over, you can let me know how much you care about Bailey and how you’re glad y’all are taking it slow. I’m also amused by the idea that I really hate you. Hmm…wonder where you got that from?
I only ~break out~ when I’m on my period. and by ~break out~ I mean getting one little zit on the side of my face or like a couple on my cheeks jbhjbxajkshcd
fuck you menstrual cycle..I wish I knew how to quit you
and then when I tried to tell my family to stop with the negativity regarding my weight gain..it got thrown back at me.
I don’t know what I’m going to do if they look at my stomach, portions of food, or say “weren’t you a size 7 before?” one more time
how do you think they’ll feel if I relapse and just don’t get/take those awesome little laxatives again?
my mom told me that a family friend saw my dad and she told her that he looks really sick. I think she was waiting for me to get emotional but LOL no.
I’m sorry but that man has the worst temper in the world. He’s the biggest drama queen and tries to make every one feel miserable. If you’re expecting ME out of all people to show some sort of emotion for him, you are wrong wrong WRONG
I also have this disgusting excuse for a cousin who tries to make me feel bad for not respecting/loving him. EXCUSE YOU! He’s the one who decided to fuck some bitch, and another one, and another one when he was still with my mom. He’s the one who would call my mom at the wee hours in the morning begging her to let him come back. The next day, he’d call her names and say he was glad he left her blah blah blah. I would love it if you kept your fat mouth shut and didn’t try to pry into this situation.
He could really be a good man but he lets his drinking get the best of him, and his horrible choice of mistresses/girlfriends w/e you want to call them. I’ve just had enough of his bullshit. He should have taken my grandpa’s death as a wake up call but he didn’t. He’s still choosing to be a little bitch about everything and drink his problems away.
He’s been trying to figure out why I’ve been so cold to him…really? REALLY?
This is the same man who sent me a long (drunken) text about how ashamed he was of me being in a relationship with my ex. This is the same man who would call me names and worthless after I told him I didn’t know what I wanted to do after school. He used to poke fun at my weight and thought he was being funny when really he and my mom and grandma were the reasons why I stopped eating/got sick
soooooo I don’t know what these people want from me
I’m a really angry person on the inside.
ooh maybe when somebody ticks me off, I’ll turn into The Hulk! but instead of green..I’ll turn a nice blue or yellow
or you know
die from all this unwanted stress
